Posts Tagged ‘Lebanon’

Great Expectations

Sunday, September 26th, 2010

I’ve never been pregnant so I don’t know what it feels like to wait and prepare for the arrival of a baby. I imagine it must be a wonderful time, full of anticipation, anxiety, joy and the heavy knowledge that you are about to do something life-changing. While certainly not on the same level as bringing a person into the world, delivering the fruits of the Iraqi Voices Amplification Project to New York City and beyond has non-the-less brought a lot of sleepless nights.

For the last two years, I have been working to bring No Place Called Home into the world. The play, based on interviews with hundreds of Iraqi refugees across Jordan, Lebanon and Syria, is an unexpected love story. It tells the true story of an American woman and an Iraqi man, a story about one refugee and 4 million, a story that isn’t supposed to be a love story.

It’s also the fulfillment of a promise. A promise I made to the countless Iraqi refugees I’ve met over the last two years who asked me to tell people about their suffering, to try and help them move on with their lives, to get a new home, a new start and a chance at a real future.

The first time I ever meet an Iraqi was in Lebanon in 2008. My colleague Eduardo Vargas and I had been sent to observe the situation on the ground for Iraqis living in exile. In meeting after meeting, the plea that emerged over and over again was that the Iraqis were stuck in a holding pattern—unable to return, unable to get resettled and unable to put down roots in their host countries—they were languishing in urban cities out of sight (and mind) of the whole world.

After I returned home, I couldn’t get the faces of the people we’d met out of my mind. The young mother whose son had been kidnapped out of her front yard when she’d gone into the house to get him another glass of milk. He was returned three days later, after she paid $5,000 in ransom, but he had been beaten and taught to smoke—four years old. Or the mother of five children whose husband had been missing for months and she still wasn’t sure if he was dead or alive or what to tell the children.

Amid all the cups of tea, the tears and the story-telling, the question that hung heavy in the air was– “what can I expect for my children now?” With no options for legal residency or employment, limited access to education and no end in sight to their situation, the future that these mothers could offer their children was uncertain at best. And yet these women were certainly not giving up on their expectations for their children to have a normal life.

Perhaps the fact that No Place Called Home is ultimately a love story is not so unexpected after all. It was a love for all the people in this world regardless of race, religion, country or creed that motivated this project to begin with. It was a love of the arts and a belief in their power to change the world that motivated eight American artists to spend three weeks soaking in stories of survival, torture, perseverance, heartbreak and pride. And it is the Iraqis love for their children and their continued hopes for a bright future that makes this a story that simply must be told.

Photos by C. Eduardo Vargas, Amikaeyla Gaston and Alissa Everett

still back, still there

Friday, November 13th, 2009

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So, it’s been almost a month since my return to the states, and I still feel half in the Middle East. The voices still follow me and the responsibility I have to share their voices still calls. I want to do right by the Iraqis. I owe them that. So I write. And write and write and will hopefully have a show that will transport you all to a world where you can experience and hear the stories like we did.

The one thing that resonates most with me these days is that as I ease back into my life and my routine, most of the Iraqis we met are in the exact same spot, same chair, same empty fridge, same waiting, same fear, same hopelessness, same homelessness that they were in when we visited them. Nothing changes for them. I go back to Starbucks and get my mani/pedis and think about Christmas shopping. And there they still sit. Waiting.

I’m afraid I’ll forget. I am trying not to.

A gift from an artist

Monday, October 12th, 2009

Today we were invited into a refugee’s home whom we met yesterday. He had quite a story to tell—about being kidnapped and tortured and chased and threatened and being scared and hungry and lonely and angry–all because he was Sunni and suddenly, after 2003, his country began to care…and kill based on religion.

But that’s not the story I want to share here. What I want to share here is a story about dreams lost, a story about a man who considered himself to be a hero in years gone by. He once was happy and successful, he said. He was actually a famous boxer AND he was an artist.  His brothers and sisters were artists and writers. He came from an entire family of artists–a family now torn apart by war. Now they are living in various far flung parts of the world—victims of the violent experiences their country has had. Now he has nothing. He has lost it all—due to our invasion of his country. Suddenly, religion became an issue in his neighborhood, suddenly he didn’t know who to trust, suddenly neighbors were turning on neighbors. And now he makes no art and is awaiting a life again, waiting no longer to be a hero to his family, but perhaps merely a provider (something he is unable to be in the current situation).

In his home, we met his beautiful wife and incredible children. They let us into their lives and their homes. He showed us how he makes mosaics–although he doesn’t do much art these days. His kids showed us an uncle’s soap art and one little girl named Shukraan (arabic for ‘thank you’–as hers was a difficult birth) wouldn’t let go of my hand. She clung tightly to it for as long as I would allow her.

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It was a gift.

As we were leaving, after many hugs and kisses and shakes and shukrans, the father thanked us. He said our visit gave him the possibility of making art again. He felt inspired.

So did I.

Poetry, Torture and Love

Saturday, October 10th, 2009


Centre for Rehabilitation of Victims of Violence and Torture, “Restart” offers specialized services for victims of torture and their families in Beirut, Lebanon. The IVAP team visited with four Iraqi torture victims and listened to their stories of pain and grace.

refugee geography 101

Friday, October 9th, 2009

When Iraqis flee the war in their homeland, where do they go?  Fully seven different nations share a border with Iraq: Turkey, Syria, Lebanon, Jordan, Iran, Saudi Arabia, and Kuwait.  All but the latter (which made it clear from the get-go that it wouldn’t welcome refugees) are playing host, with varying degrees of reluctance, to Iraqi asylum seekers.   Here’s a nice visual overview of the situation:

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Needless to say, these numbers have a large margin of error.  It’s easy to under-count refugees, for two reasons.  The first has to do with politics.   Here in Jordan, for instance, the official figure is 500,000 and not a soul more.  Why?  Because the Jordanian government fears that publicizing a larger number will encourage more Iraqis to flock here, taxing the already overburdened national infrastructure and creating a kind of second Palestinian refugee situation.  (The official number is enforced, too: if you’re an NGO that wants to continue assisting Iraqis in Jordan, you had best subscribe to the view that there are only half a million of them.)

The second reason is more obvious: you try getting a precise head count on a population that is always in flux and often in fear.   If I’m doing my math right, the above map places the total number of refugees at 2,454,000, while many people now seem to put the figure closer to 2.2. million.  In other words, the numbers on the map are in the right ballpark, but only if you accept that the ballpark is pretty big.

What this map doesn’t show, though, is the complexity of factors that determine why individual Iraqis go where they do.  Over and over when you speak with refugees, they tell you that, before the war, Sunni, Shiite and Christian Iraqis lived together in harmony.  (Two days ago, one man swore to me on his Qur’an that he’d never even known there was a difference between Sunni and Shiite Muslims until the war.)  However much those remarks are colored by nostalgia and historical amnesia, it’s unquestionably true that pre-war Iraq was not riven by the fierce sectarian clashes that divide it today.

When Iraqis fled, though, they faced complicated calculations about where to go.  Some of these questions were basic: what country could they get to safely?  What forms of transportation were available to them?  Where did they have friends and family?  What could they afford?  Which nations had the laxest border requirements, the least expensive visas, the most lenient (or bribe-friendly) authorities?

But questions about cultural identity came into play, too — precisely the kind of questions that hadn’t mattered as much in pre-war Iraq.  For instance: who goes to Lebanon?  Well, for one, Iraqi Christians, who can benefit from its large and established Christian population.  For another, Iraqi Shiites, who head to the south of the country, where the charity arm of Hezbollah provides assistance to its sectarian brethern.  Who goes to Jordan?  First off, the wealthy: Amman ain’t cheap even for Westerners.  Second, the secular: although far more conservative than Lebanon, Jordan is also not an Islamist state, and it’s a comfortable place for non-religious Iraqis to live.

And so it goes on down the list.  In searching for a new homeland — or at least a temporary refuge — Iraqis must make complicated choices based in no small part on the same kind of divisions that have lately torn their country to pieces.  Those choices aren’t inherently dangerous (I’ve yet to hear a credible report of sectarian enmity and violence spilling over from the Iraq war into the refugee community), yet it’s impossible to feel that they aren’t, at the very least, invidious.  And they are a sad fate for a people that seem to be mourning, among their many other losses, the disappearance of a diverse communal life.

Dreams of a Refugee Pianist

Friday, October 9th, 2009

Part of what happens when you bring a group of artists to speak to refugees (or really to speak to anyone), is that the subject of art comes up. When people hear that we are artists, they tend to start telling us about the art that they know and love. There stories begin to be told on the level of music and dance, picture and sound. Last Wednesday was no exception.

Caritas Home Visit

Thursday, October 8th, 2009

The IVAP team followed a Caritas social worker on a home visit with an Iraqi refugee family living in Saida. Caritas Lebanon is a member of Caritas Internationalis, a worldwide confederation which figures among the worlds largest humanitarian networks.

Stéphane Jaquemet, UN Regional Representative

Thursday, October 8th, 2009

The IVAP team met with Stéphane Jaquemet, United Nations Regional Representative in Beirut to talk about issues relating to the resettlement of Iraqi refugees.

In Lebanon, in limbo

Thursday, October 8th, 2009

I’m writing this in the Beirut airport, on the other side of customs, an exit stamp in my passport, at liberty to go where I want.  Welcome to one of the countless ways that my own life bears almost no resemblance to those of the estimated fifty thousand Iraqi refugees in Lebanon.  For them, leaving is not an option.  They cannot safely return to Iraq (and nor do many of them want to: well over half of those I talked to said that even peace would not lure them back to the site of so many traumatic memories).  But nor can they readily go elsewhere anytime soon.

I met a man today, for instance, who arrived in Lebanon in September with nothing but the clothes on his back.  Having been tortured in Baghdad, threatened and robbed in Damascus, and beaten almost to death in Beirut, he is desperate to be settled somewhere safe.  Yet his first meeting with UNHCR – a meeting that does nothing more than determine if he is eligible for refugee status – was not set to take place until December 29th.  (Safety issues aside, how he was supposed to survive in Lebanon in the intervening four months was woefully unclear.  Without UNHCR recognition, refugees can’t access any of the services provided by aid organizations.)  And that meeting represents only the first step in the long and chronically uncertain process of resettlement.  Those refugees hoping to get into the United States, for example, must undergo three separate screenings by three different agencies: UNHCR, ICMC (the International Catholic Migration Commission, an intermediary organization used by the U.S. to vet potential refugees), and, finally, the Department of Homeland Security.

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Iraqi women and children waiting at a UNHCR refugee processing center in Beirut

In  applying for resettlement, refugees are competing for an extremely scarce resource.  Earlier this month, the United States set its 2010 quota for refugees of all nationalities at 80,000.  The global figure is not much higher, hovering somewhere around 120,000.  Compare those figures to the 2.5 million Iraqi refugees (to say nothing of the estimated 8 million other people fleeing conflict and persecution in other places), and it becomes clear that the resettlement process amounts to a painfully slow, painfully poor-odds crapshoot.

And here’s what makes it worse: the Iraqi refugees in Lebanon can’t leave, but they can’t just decide to stay, either.  Lebanon hasn’t signed on to the 1951 United Nations Convention Relating to the Status of Refugees, the international protocol that outlines the responsibilities of those nations that accept asylum seekers – responsibilities that include granting them legal status.  The Lebanese government could decide to extend such status to refugees from Iraq anyway, but there is roughly zero chance that it will do so.

That resistance has nothing to do with the Iraqis, and everything to do with the most intractable problem facing the Middle East as a whole: Palestine.  Lebanon has long played unwilling host to some 400,000 Palestinian refugees – nearly one-tenth of the country’s total population.  Legalizing those refugees is politically unthinkable.  (That’s its own long and complicated story, but the short version is that doing so would threaten the status and power of Lebanon’s Christian community and foment fears about further tensions with Israel).  And that makes legalizing the Iraqis essentially impossible as well.  As a result, virtually every Iraqi refugee in Lebanon is, technically speaking, living there illegally.

An Iraqi man being interviewed at the UNHCR center

An Iraqi man being interviewed at the UNHCR center

Despite that fact, the Lebanese government has, in many respects, treated the incoming Iraqis fairly well.  Most are granted entry at the border, all have access (in theory, although seldom in practice) to the nation’s education and healthcare systems, and the authorities routinely turn a blind eye to the widespread visa violations.  But by failing to legalize the refugees, Lebanon leaves them frighteningly vulnerable to every form of exploitation and abuse: the shorting or withholding of promised pay by employers, the use of child labor, and forced sex work, to name just a few.  There are laws to protect against such abuses, of course – but the law can’t help you much if you yourself are illegal.

Then, too, there are the psychological costs of living in a country that refuses to recognize that you are likely to remain there.  For Iraqis, Lebanon is not a home so much as a holding pen.  Over and over, the refugees I met there told me that they are living a slow death, that they are just marking time, that they cannot think about the future beyond hoping to be resettled somewhere new.  Because there is a political myth that they are merely passing through (a myth that is even more laughable in the case of the Palestinian refugees, who have been there since 1948), the Iraqis there cannot and do not begin to construct new lives.  Dreams of the future are confined to desperate fantasies of life in the United States or Sweden or Australia – fantasies that are made all the more poignant by being all the less likely to come true.

Mourning into Dancing

Thursday, October 8th, 2009

Laughter, tears and dancing mark a Iraqi Voices Amplification Project Team visit with Iraqi refugee families in Beirut, Lebanon.